Living a life based on believing in your points of view is so utterly painful. It's a life of continual ups and downs.
LISTEN UP! You don't have to live that way. Stop everything you think you know and rest deeply. Repeat that many times and support yourself in the 24/7 support system of Balanced View- the Four Mainstays, inclusive of a powerful human society of great benefit.
You are perfect as you are.